 between a rock and a hard place | |
Well my story is a long one. I am 26 years old with a daughter who is 14 months.
Ok its hard to decide where to begin. The mother of my daughter was a high school friend and while I was living in Texas she decided to move there to get away from Illinois.
After a month we ended up becoming a couple. We had a great first year and seemed like she was going to be the one. The second year got rough and she proclaimed she wanted to have my child. After a tubular pregnancy she finally got pregnant. As our lease was ending she decided she wanted to move back to Illinois so her mother could help her while she was pregnant.
In discussion we first thought it best I go live with my family to finish my education. After getting there and starting to get things in order she informed me that she wasn't going to wait for me. So trying to be responsible I packed up and moved to Illinois. We stayed in her mothers 1 bedroom apartment where I slept on the couch. I got a decent job at the place her mother worked and thought I would be saving for a place of our own. Instead we ended up getting a 2 bedroom apartment with us and her mother. Once again her mother and her stayed in one room and I in another because she didn't want us sleeping together since we wernt married.
The relationship started to dwindle and a month after the baby was born she said she didn't want to be with me anymore. 2 weeks later she had a new boyfriend and we still lived together. She dated him for 6 months and then broke up with him to try to make our relationship work. That lasted a week and then it was back to not wanting me.
Oh yes during all this she was not working. Anyway to get to the point after that little back story we have 3 months left on the lease. She has continued to go out and date and now that I have as well she has gotten even more of a attitude with me. So I am going to get the 3 months rent money leave and go into my own place. What is killing me is leaving my daughter. I know it would happen eventually but it is still tearing me up inside because I feel like she won't let me see her. She already uses things like that to hurt me. I know I have tl do what's right for me but the depression is hard.
I know this doesn't have a lot to do with parenting but I didn't really know how to classify my situation.
Just wondering if anyone has gone through something similar or has any insight.
Wolf
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