wow I feel for both of you. A lot of times when we fear calling it is our fear of rejection. However, you never know until you try. One way to prepare yourself is to write down the things you want to say, ask, and even how you feel. Then when you are on the phone and you are nervous you can refer to your list. I do agree that the 1st conversation will be difficult for both so dont ask all your questions. Ask if you could call again and just talk about things.
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Missy~
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