iahayah

You could try writing a letter to her, telling her how you feel. Don't blame her in the letter, or she probably won't reply. It won't hurt to admit some fault too-- the situation may well be mostly her fault but it wasn't all her fault. Or better yet, don't make the letter about the problems you've faced. Just talk about your feelings, and how you want to say goodbye to her, etc. Even if she doesn't reply, she'll remember it, which might help her to remember you positively once she is in the Marines, and able to see the problems that happened more clearly.