I went to a concert with my girlfriend last night and she cheerfully admitted to having a fake ID at the age of 17 which had her bored with going out by age 21. She tried to explain/defend it with a grin. She also admitted to snorting ecstasy in a bar bathroom once in her young years (she's 45 now; I'm 26). She laughed it off as "corny" but also noted "I could have died." I'm mostly straight-edge (I tried pot once and sip her alcoholic drinks), so I couldn't help but feel really hurt when she told me this. I already knew she did cocaine a few times in her 20s and I've seen her rarely smoke a tiny bit of pot (illegally) for migraines. She had a shot of tequila to settler her upset stomach last night but didn't get drunk.
She claims that she was straight-edge until being molested by her step dad at age 17, went to a foster home, and then deliberately overdosed on pain pills and started drinking that same year. She had a far tougher upbringing that me, and it seems that much of her young adulthood stems from that.
I know it's largely because of my lifestyle, but every time she reveals these parts of her past I can't help but feel alienated and awful. If we were the same age I never would have dated her, but now that she's settled with kids, it works. I have great affection for her and I definitely love her to an extent, but sometimes I feel so distant from her because of these revelations. Am I valid in this? Should I talk to her about it, or should I just suck it up and accept that everyone's lives make for different paths and choices?
She claims that she was straight-edge until being molested by her step dad at age 17, went to a foster home, and then deliberately overdosed on pain pills and started drinking that same year. She had a far tougher upbringing that me, and it seems that much of her young adulthood stems from that.
I know it's largely because of my lifestyle, but every time she reveals these parts of her past I can't help but feel alienated and awful. If we were the same age I never would have dated her, but now that she's settled with kids, it works. I have great affection for her and I definitely love her to an extent, but sometimes I feel so distant from her because of these revelations. Am I valid in this? Should I talk to her about it, or should I just suck it up and accept that everyone's lives make for different paths and choices?