I am a parent to three children. Thwo are my step kids, and one is my biological child. My steps son 14, step daughter 16, and biological daughter 4.
My oldest two came into my life around 9 years ago. We had some rough times adjusting to each other, as would be expected. As is my character; I took on the role of step dad, as one of "doing my duty". Providing them with the things they need, supporting them in their school activities, etc. Somewhere along the way, I came to love them. This was quite by surprise to me; I never saw it coming. My step daughter and I especially, appeared to form a special bond. During a period of time when her biological father was not permitted to see her due to some physical abuse, we bacame very close. However, her relationship with her mom, has always been rough. From the time her mom and I started dating, it was painfully obvious that she had alot of rage towards her mother, and frequently lashed out at her. I had dated other single moms, and had seen this same thing. So, I figured it was something specific to the single mom/daughter relationship, and it would pass in time. My daughter is now 16(almost 17), and the situation has only continued to get worse. She has become just plain mean. She is so full of hate. She frequently tells her mom that she hates her. She has run away to her father's house twice. This most recent time that she ran off to her father's house, it was simply because her mom asked her about an unexused absence at school. It escalated into another instance of her telling her mom how much she hates her, telling her how much she hates living here, how we don't do anything with her or for her. My wife was destroyed; crying, wondering what she has done wrong, unsure what to do. When our daughter finally came home, she broke into tears, basically colapsed on my lap, hugging me and telling me how sorry she is for the stuff she does, then she hugged her brother and appolgized to him. When she hugged me, it was one of those huggs that you feel right to your core.......pure emotion.....sincere. Everytime I think I just can't cope with all this anymore....she melts my heart like this. I am sorry if this is becoming a bit like babble.....I have too much to say for even this one post. The thing is....I have taken her to a very reputable therapist for counceling, I have had every test we can do to see if she has any medical conditions. We recently started her on Lexipro for what the doctor suspects is a social anxiety disorder, not uncommon in teenagers. I try to be her friend as best I can while still being her parent, We support her every way we can. However, nothing seems to make a diference. She is nicer to me and the 4 year old than she is to her mom or her brother. She frequently says that she hates her mom and her brother. Now, I suspect she hates me too. The fairly constant turmoil is having a negative effect on the entire family. We have issues with my son, in the form of a violent temper, that gets harder to work on when things are errupting with his sister. The constant stress is starting hurt my mariage, and I am becoming someone I really don't like any more. I am yelling too much, staying at work more, not wanting to be home. I love my kids and my wife, but I am feeling used up inside. Does anyone out there understand what I am talking about? I have nowhere else to turn. All our friends, or family, are not someone I can talk to about these issues. I fear it would change the way they view my daughter. Any helpful input would be greatly appreciated. It frequently takes me a while to get back to the computer, so please be patient. I run a business, help around the house, transport my daughter to cheerleading, my son to basketball, etc.....
Thanks,
Rob
My oldest two came into my life around 9 years ago. We had some rough times adjusting to each other, as would be expected. As is my character; I took on the role of step dad, as one of "doing my duty". Providing them with the things they need, supporting them in their school activities, etc. Somewhere along the way, I came to love them. This was quite by surprise to me; I never saw it coming. My step daughter and I especially, appeared to form a special bond. During a period of time when her biological father was not permitted to see her due to some physical abuse, we bacame very close. However, her relationship with her mom, has always been rough. From the time her mom and I started dating, it was painfully obvious that she had alot of rage towards her mother, and frequently lashed out at her. I had dated other single moms, and had seen this same thing. So, I figured it was something specific to the single mom/daughter relationship, and it would pass in time. My daughter is now 16(almost 17), and the situation has only continued to get worse. She has become just plain mean. She is so full of hate. She frequently tells her mom that she hates her. She has run away to her father's house twice. This most recent time that she ran off to her father's house, it was simply because her mom asked her about an unexused absence at school. It escalated into another instance of her telling her mom how much she hates her, telling her how much she hates living here, how we don't do anything with her or for her. My wife was destroyed; crying, wondering what she has done wrong, unsure what to do. When our daughter finally came home, she broke into tears, basically colapsed on my lap, hugging me and telling me how sorry she is for the stuff she does, then she hugged her brother and appolgized to him. When she hugged me, it was one of those huggs that you feel right to your core.......pure emotion.....sincere. Everytime I think I just can't cope with all this anymore....she melts my heart like this. I am sorry if this is becoming a bit like babble.....I have too much to say for even this one post. The thing is....I have taken her to a very reputable therapist for counceling, I have had every test we can do to see if she has any medical conditions. We recently started her on Lexipro for what the doctor suspects is a social anxiety disorder, not uncommon in teenagers. I try to be her friend as best I can while still being her parent, We support her every way we can. However, nothing seems to make a diference. She is nicer to me and the 4 year old than she is to her mom or her brother. She frequently says that she hates her mom and her brother. Now, I suspect she hates me too. The fairly constant turmoil is having a negative effect on the entire family. We have issues with my son, in the form of a violent temper, that gets harder to work on when things are errupting with his sister. The constant stress is starting hurt my mariage, and I am becoming someone I really don't like any more. I am yelling too much, staying at work more, not wanting to be home. I love my kids and my wife, but I am feeling used up inside. Does anyone out there understand what I am talking about? I have nowhere else to turn. All our friends, or family, are not someone I can talk to about these issues. I fear it would change the way they view my daughter. Any helpful input would be greatly appreciated. It frequently takes me a while to get back to the computer, so please be patient. I run a business, help around the house, transport my daughter to cheerleading, my son to basketball, etc.....
Thanks,
Rob