Hi. For those who thought that my last post was a sham, it was. I am actually the daughter who is going through all that chaos I had previously written about. I am truly sorry for upsetting everyone.
My plan was not to be deceitful. I wrote that post in my parents' perspective in hopes to gain an understanding of what other parents would think of it. I don't believe that I exaggerated my parents view of me. Most if not all of what I had written, are direct quotations of what my parents had said to me.
My goal was to know if I should move out. My parents have threatened to disown me three times already. What I had meant by disowning is: they won't consider me their daughter anymore, my dad said that he does not want me at his deathbed, they won't ever visit me, they don't want me to visit them, they will tell all their friends that I am dead to them, they will no longer acknowledge my existence.
Although those are very hurtful things that they have said to me, I have forgiven them but I have not forgotten what they've said. I try to convince myself that they only said those things in the heat of the moment when they were really upset. But they have threatened to disown me so many times that I have become to believe that they do truly mean it.
I want to move out and live with my fiance but I know that by doing that I would lose my parents. Even though, some people may believe that they are terrible parents for having such conditional love, they are still my parents whom I love very much despite their faults. Thus, I have this internal turmoil of what I should do.
Any help and advice would be greatly appreciated. Again, I am very sorry for upsetting everyone in the last post. I hope you can understand what my true goal and purpose was.
My plan was not to be deceitful. I wrote that post in my parents' perspective in hopes to gain an understanding of what other parents would think of it. I don't believe that I exaggerated my parents view of me. Most if not all of what I had written, are direct quotations of what my parents had said to me.
My goal was to know if I should move out. My parents have threatened to disown me three times already. What I had meant by disowning is: they won't consider me their daughter anymore, my dad said that he does not want me at his deathbed, they won't ever visit me, they don't want me to visit them, they will tell all their friends that I am dead to them, they will no longer acknowledge my existence.
Although those are very hurtful things that they have said to me, I have forgiven them but I have not forgotten what they've said. I try to convince myself that they only said those things in the heat of the moment when they were really upset. But they have threatened to disown me so many times that I have become to believe that they do truly mean it.
I want to move out and live with my fiance but I know that by doing that I would lose my parents. Even though, some people may believe that they are terrible parents for having such conditional love, they are still my parents whom I love very much despite their faults. Thus, I have this internal turmoil of what I should do.
Any help and advice would be greatly appreciated. Again, I am very sorry for upsetting everyone in the last post. I hope you can understand what my true goal and purpose was.
