So over this summer, I have noticed that I have gotten increasingly anti-soical, with each outing its gotten worse.
Tonight I noticed that I much prefer to sit at home in my room, barely speaking to my mom or brother, communicating with friends only via text or MSN or IRC, sitting on my laptop from the time I wake up to the time I go to bed minus showering, eating, and the occasional outing + explorers bi-weekly.
I just don't want to deal with anything or anyone.
I just want to sit contently in my room away from everything.
Now, don't get me wrong, its nothing like my mom's antisocialness which stems from her hatred of the world. I am just too sad and too worn out to deal with anything, to be out of my comfort zone or to put up with something I don't want to put up with.
If I even feel the slightest bit of losing control or if something isn't going right I get into this mood and my anxiety attacks have been triggering easier. Like, I think I've had like 4 just this week and i've had like 5 migraines this week as well.
My friend wants me to go to water world tomorrow from 9am to 6pm....
I don't know if I wanna go.
Part of me is like hmm water world sounds nice and the other part of me is like stay in your rooooommmm.
I wanna call my current state apathetic but its more like a somber depression.
So should I stay home where I know i'll be content or should I go and risk a total melt down?
Tonight I noticed that I much prefer to sit at home in my room, barely speaking to my mom or brother, communicating with friends only via text or MSN or IRC, sitting on my laptop from the time I wake up to the time I go to bed minus showering, eating, and the occasional outing + explorers bi-weekly.
I just don't want to deal with anything or anyone.
I just want to sit contently in my room away from everything.
Now, don't get me wrong, its nothing like my mom's antisocialness which stems from her hatred of the world. I am just too sad and too worn out to deal with anything, to be out of my comfort zone or to put up with something I don't want to put up with.
If I even feel the slightest bit of losing control or if something isn't going right I get into this mood and my anxiety attacks have been triggering easier. Like, I think I've had like 4 just this week and i've had like 5 migraines this week as well.
My friend wants me to go to water world tomorrow from 9am to 6pm....
I don't know if I wanna go.
Part of me is like hmm water world sounds nice and the other part of me is like stay in your rooooommmm.
I wanna call my current state apathetic but its more like a somber depression.
So should I stay home where I know i'll be content or should I go and risk a total melt down?