I'm 15 and writing this post beause it helps me to put things into perspective. If you want to tell me I'm 'too young' and 'stupid' you're one of many.
I knew I wanted a a two parent family for my future child. I had envisioned us all together having a joyful time. He tried to tell me it would happen cos he wanted it too. But I knew it was quite unrealistic of me.
My now ex (16) would give me inconsistent breadrumbs of love and affection. It hurt me especially when he wouldn't. But when he did it made me feel so warm. We were LDR and he had told me I'd get way more love and affection in person. And I did. I found myself getting frustrated at him and even angry. For most of the time to have not felt cared about. I had given him a list of expectations. He didn't follow them. They weren't unreasonable. Virtual snuggles and morning/night messages, just nice things. He's online a lot so I knew it wouldn't be an issue. So I would start arguments everyday. According to him he didn't understand (he still doesn't). And we've gotten back together more times than I can remember in just a few months.
Over not much time at all I've come to hate him and he's aware of it because I made sure he knew. I'd said hurtful things, I feel really bad for that, I knew better. There are things he shouldn't have done and said to and about me in the past as my then boyfriend that left me feeling deeply hurt and betrayed. It was the reason for my behaviour but I still know it was unnacceptable. He's always had a reason for betraying. I never forgave him tho. And things kept piling on and I lost my will to live
He'd then say horrible things about himself then he'd leave me to worry all day and night or longer and then come back like nothing happened.
He said he'll come back to me in the future once he's improved himself. I've been going through a lot lately and I wanted him there for me but yet again he has an excuse to leave me to suffer alone. Which was how I worked out I couldn't possibly have a child together in the future. Which is typical. And I've found myself deeply hurt again
He's blocked me and I have blocked him and deleted my accounts. He has no way to contact me if he wanted to unless he remembered my address and he doesn't.
I knew I wanted a a two parent family for my future child. I had envisioned us all together having a joyful time. He tried to tell me it would happen cos he wanted it too. But I knew it was quite unrealistic of me.
My now ex (16) would give me inconsistent breadrumbs of love and affection. It hurt me especially when he wouldn't. But when he did it made me feel so warm. We were LDR and he had told me I'd get way more love and affection in person. And I did. I found myself getting frustrated at him and even angry. For most of the time to have not felt cared about. I had given him a list of expectations. He didn't follow them. They weren't unreasonable. Virtual snuggles and morning/night messages, just nice things. He's online a lot so I knew it wouldn't be an issue. So I would start arguments everyday. According to him he didn't understand (he still doesn't). And we've gotten back together more times than I can remember in just a few months.
Over not much time at all I've come to hate him and he's aware of it because I made sure he knew. I'd said hurtful things, I feel really bad for that, I knew better. There are things he shouldn't have done and said to and about me in the past as my then boyfriend that left me feeling deeply hurt and betrayed. It was the reason for my behaviour but I still know it was unnacceptable. He's always had a reason for betraying. I never forgave him tho. And things kept piling on and I lost my will to live
He'd then say horrible things about himself then he'd leave me to worry all day and night or longer and then come back like nothing happened.
He said he'll come back to me in the future once he's improved himself. I've been going through a lot lately and I wanted him there for me but yet again he has an excuse to leave me to suffer alone. Which was how I worked out I couldn't possibly have a child together in the future. Which is typical. And I've found myself deeply hurt again
He's blocked me and I have blocked him and deleted my accounts. He has no way to contact me if he wanted to unless he remembered my address and he doesn't.
