So today was dh's birthday. We were out and about so much that we ended up having two grande types of coffee from Starbucks. It made me so jittery that I felt like I was having that anxious attack that I was having at the beginning of the year that was causing me problems. It was horrible!
Anyway, so whenever I have anxious attacks I freak out about things that are so small. But I was wondering what people thought of this. Untasteful jokes that have children in them. Such as "grass on the field play ball" and "dead baby" jokes. They make me sick! In the military you hear the Marines yelling "Kill babies", I one time stopped a whole movement to yell at them about how wrong it was. I walked out of a class because a student was making dead baby jokes. Whenever I hear the "grass on the field" jokes I cringe and tell them they are sick. Here is my problem though...
Whenever I was a young girl, like 12, I had a sister that was around one. I didn't know any better, but I still feel horrible. My best friend and I used to pretend that the toy dinosaur was a male part and be like, "Oh look, sister takes it in the ear! Or other places..." We never actually DID anything, but the fact that I made those jokes when I was 12, and now I'm 23, bother me now. It feels sad and silly to me. One time whenever dd was playing with a toy in her mouth it looked like she was doing something sick and my mom jokingly said, "oh it looks like you gave too many blow jobs in front of your daughter!" UGH! It makes me sick! I laughed it off at the time...but now it bothers me.
You guys think I'm getting worked up over nothing? Maybe it's just the coffee I had today going in to overtime and making me too jittery...not to mention the extra stress of finals week, getting out of the Navy paperwork and a dirty house?
OMG I feel horrible...and stupid!
Anyway, so whenever I have anxious attacks I freak out about things that are so small. But I was wondering what people thought of this. Untasteful jokes that have children in them. Such as "grass on the field play ball" and "dead baby" jokes. They make me sick! In the military you hear the Marines yelling "Kill babies", I one time stopped a whole movement to yell at them about how wrong it was. I walked out of a class because a student was making dead baby jokes. Whenever I hear the "grass on the field" jokes I cringe and tell them they are sick. Here is my problem though...
Whenever I was a young girl, like 12, I had a sister that was around one. I didn't know any better, but I still feel horrible. My best friend and I used to pretend that the toy dinosaur was a male part and be like, "Oh look, sister takes it in the ear! Or other places..." We never actually DID anything, but the fact that I made those jokes when I was 12, and now I'm 23, bother me now. It feels sad and silly to me. One time whenever dd was playing with a toy in her mouth it looked like she was doing something sick and my mom jokingly said, "oh it looks like you gave too many blow jobs in front of your daughter!" UGH! It makes me sick! I laughed it off at the time...but now it bothers me.
You guys think I'm getting worked up over nothing? Maybe it's just the coffee I had today going in to overtime and making me too jittery...not to mention the extra stress of finals week, getting out of the Navy paperwork and a dirty house?
OMG I feel horrible...and stupid!
