I never said or implied this.Mom2all said:Please don't assume they should just give her back.
Well then here you go. I picked her up from school on Friday and finally got a chance to meet her teacher. Her teacher wasn't there the last time I picked her up. To my surprise, her teacher is actually an old friend of mine. It was nice to catch up with somebody. We stopped at my in-laws to pick up some clothes and a few toys for the weekend. While we were there my father in-law suggested we hang around a bit and play some baseball. During high school I was a baseball prospect, but in grade 10 I got in a fight with my dad and hurt my right shoulder which ended my competitve career, but Christina's dad always wanted to play. He'd go pretty easy, but it always great fun. He had been teaching Mei too. We played for a few hours, it was a lot of fun. We ended up staying for dinner and when we finally got home it was pretty late. We dozed off watching TV.singledad said:Please don't stop updating us! I would love to hear how things work out for you...
We went shopping yesterday and had a nice little adventure with cooking (I'm not a terrible cook, but Christina would do most of the cooking, so I definitely need some practice) After dinner something strange happened. I was reading Mei a story (She can read and all, but she wanted me to read it to her) and while I was reading, she started humming a song. It sounded very familiar, and after a while of listening I realized it was a song I wrote for Christina in senior year. Her parents must have sung it to Mei at some point, I asked her where she heard it and she said she didn't know. She said had known it for as long as she could remember.
I asked her if she wanted to know where it came from and I went and dusted off my guitar and played it for her. I explained to her how I had wrote this for Christina when we were going to school. She said she loved it and thought that mommy would love it too. Eventually night fell and after we washed up we prepared for bed. I could see something was bothering Mei, but as much as I asked her what it was, she wouldn't tell me.
I told her that if she ever had anything to say she could tell me, and that she might feel a lot better for it. It's not good to hold things in and I've always believed that talking is the most underrated aspect of any relationship. Talking can go a long way for a lot of people. Finally, she looks at me and asks me why I left her as a baby. This caught me totally off-guard. I don't know how long I stared at her before I answered, but it felt like forever. Finally I told her that it's very complicated and that I couldn't explain it right now. That answer didn't seem to satisfy her, so I kept talking. "Mei, I've been such a terrible daddy for a long time and I'm sorry for it." were along the lines of what I said. She told me that it was okay and hugged me. I asked her if it would be okay if we spent more time together, she said it would be and that she wanted to. She said she had fun on her visit. That put me at ease and for the first time in years I slept well.
I dropped her off at my in-laws about an hour ago. I feel kind of bad, I feel like I let emotions get in the way of a good visit again. Yet I wouldn't trade these last 2 days for anything. I didn't bring up the living situation, it didn't seem right to. I will soon, though. I'm going to see her again tomorrow after school for a few hours, I'm not sure what we'll do.
As for my father, I'm about to call him and see how things are. I want to make sure he's okay to see Mei and that it will be a positive experience.
Once again, thanks for all the advice and encouragement. I will stop updating now (Unless there's another request)
To everyone else, thank you for your continued help, advice and encouragement.