I cried walking away, then dried it up and went about the day. Yes, it made me sad. my little helper/buddy/1st born was gone of to school. How's she gonna handle it? is she gonna behave?, a lot of feelings went through me. but i couldn't let them stop me from taking care of business---taking care of her sister, cleaning house, and paying bills, looking for a job w/paycheck.
I had to trust that she would be fine and if an emergency came up the school personnel could handle it and would notify me if i was needed.
no, i didn't celebrate--my baby was growing up and didn't need me anymore so i was sad. but i am proud of her and happy for her and was then. she's getting to be a big girl and growing up.
now my 4 yr. old will go off to pr-k next year. I will feel the same way with her the way I did with my 6 yr. old, but it still wont change things. there will still be housework to be done, bills to pay, and hopefully a new job w/paycheck to go to with it all, the only difference being that there wont be a little helper/buddy,the youngest there to do it with me. it will mean peace and quiet but it will also mean boredom and spending time w/people i don't want to be with and hours that aint mine to do as i please. but it will also mean my other baby is growing up and don't need me as much so i'll be happy for her and proud of her too, just as i was/am for my 1st born.