I'm really glad she got back to you, and you know whether or not her story is true, I'm really glad you got the kind of answer from her that seems regretful and trying to explain her actions, trying to apologize and whatnot. Its a lot better than a lot of answers you could have gotten. But listen, don't ever say that the only thing she deserves is petty and that nothing is her fault. No matter what happened to her, you guys were still only children and none of that will ever be fair to you or your fault. She still could have handled herself better. Every situation can be handled in different ways. I definitely feel bad for her, in the things you are somewhat describing, but like I said there are different ways of handling things.
I think either way, that your whole family was in a really sad situation.
I feel really bad for everyone involved and I can only imagine if its possible to completely heal from it.
I wanted to add too that after I reconnected with my mom, I had a lot of fear and anger for her. She cried and apologized and blamed her sickness (she has brain damage among other problems) and the fact that she was on so many drugs. All the court hearings that she never showed up at, she said she was in the hospital. Can I ever prove any of this was true or the sole reason she treated me the way she did or did the horrible things she did to me for all those years? No, but at least I know she feels remorse for the things she put me through and she at least seems to wish things had gone differently. After that, I have slowly remade a relationship with her and I still have almost no trust for her at all, I will not leave my son out of my sight when she is around, and I'm constantly nervous and freaked out with her around him. I know its probably a huge percentage just in my head, but I can't help it. She is still a very unstable and strange person, and she causes a lot of trouble in the lives of everyone around her. Thank god she lives several states away from me, that helps our relationship a lot.
Sometimes with the shit we go through every now and again I wonder if it would have been better for me and my family had I never contacted her, but most of the time I'm okay with it and I can tell that in her heart she really cares about me and my family. I just hang onto that and I never take any bull shit from her. If she even starts to get crazy on me I either end the situation or I control it. I'll tell the truth, I'm not always nice to her, because I have a low tolerance level with her, and sometimes I feel bad for that. But that's just kind of the price for us having a relationship you know?
Not sure where I'm going with that, but I guess all I'm trying to say is that you will find out more and more the more you talk to her and get to know her etc.
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