Sooo..... I'm sure anyone can agree that being 20, single, and pregnant puts you in a tricky place. All other difficulties aside- my family is pressuring me to make a huge decision that I would rather not.
Where I'm at now- I just moved out of my apartment and in with my Dad to be closer to work and save the money I would have spent on rent for maternity leave. (I get 3 months unpaid leave). I work 32 hours a week for barely any money- however, at least I'm not part of the "no-pay-club" as they jokingly call it. I'm part of a small team of people at a computer repair shop that has been meandering along for the last five years... we're currently all working like mad-men to get it ready to take off and really start growing. It's a job I landed quite on accident but its what I've wanted to do for years- almost exactly. Except that instead of being the owner and not getting paid I'm an employee who does get paid.
I am doing just fine with what I'm getting paid now, and after hours today I'm sitting down with the boss and discussing my living expenses after I come back from leave and making sure I'll be getting paid enough to live on.
My parents, however, think that instead of going back to work, I should live with my Mom for a few years and not work, and attend University. They say it would be easier for me and better for the baby, since children need to be with their mother and its not about what I want anymore.
It seems like a great plan at first.... but I have so many problems with it. But I don't know if I'm just being selfish? My issues are- first and foremost, is that my Mom lives on the East side of the state, while I'm over here on the West coast. Being with my Mom means living out in the middle of nowhere in a place I deeply hated all growing up, with no friends around (but lots of family) no hopes for a career, and a looooong commute to university. (Kind of defeats the purpose of being with the baby in my mind...) It also means being away from the baby's father- who is young and dumb, (just like me I guess- we made this mess together.) but he also really cares. His family cares and his parents are just thrilled to have a grandchild to spoil..... I've only recently finally convinced him I'm not just going to run away with his baby, and he's let himself become emotionally invested- to the point it would tear him up inside if I lived 300 miles away for the first few years of his son's life. He is going to UW, lives in the middle of Seattle, and doesn't have a car. He would hardly ever get to see his baby. :< Everyone says children need their mother, but I am on the other side of the fence with that. Children need their fathers. I know from personal experience.
I would be away from my closest friends, all of whom are ready to offer support and love (and will probably fight over who gets to kidnap the baby for a day. )
Also important- I would be giving up the opportunity to grow with this fledgling business that is just about to take off... the two guys I'm working "for" are my best friend and a man that I am now pretty convinced is an utter genius- they say there are other fish in the sea but this is my dream scenario- I'm loathe to give it up.
Am I just being selfish? Do I come back to work, or do I live with my mom for a few years? I don't know what I should do.
Where I'm at now- I just moved out of my apartment and in with my Dad to be closer to work and save the money I would have spent on rent for maternity leave. (I get 3 months unpaid leave). I work 32 hours a week for barely any money- however, at least I'm not part of the "no-pay-club" as they jokingly call it. I'm part of a small team of people at a computer repair shop that has been meandering along for the last five years... we're currently all working like mad-men to get it ready to take off and really start growing. It's a job I landed quite on accident but its what I've wanted to do for years- almost exactly. Except that instead of being the owner and not getting paid I'm an employee who does get paid.
I am doing just fine with what I'm getting paid now, and after hours today I'm sitting down with the boss and discussing my living expenses after I come back from leave and making sure I'll be getting paid enough to live on.
My parents, however, think that instead of going back to work, I should live with my Mom for a few years and not work, and attend University. They say it would be easier for me and better for the baby, since children need to be with their mother and its not about what I want anymore.
It seems like a great plan at first.... but I have so many problems with it. But I don't know if I'm just being selfish? My issues are- first and foremost, is that my Mom lives on the East side of the state, while I'm over here on the West coast. Being with my Mom means living out in the middle of nowhere in a place I deeply hated all growing up, with no friends around (but lots of family) no hopes for a career, and a looooong commute to university. (Kind of defeats the purpose of being with the baby in my mind...) It also means being away from the baby's father- who is young and dumb, (just like me I guess- we made this mess together.) but he also really cares. His family cares and his parents are just thrilled to have a grandchild to spoil..... I've only recently finally convinced him I'm not just going to run away with his baby, and he's let himself become emotionally invested- to the point it would tear him up inside if I lived 300 miles away for the first few years of his son's life. He is going to UW, lives in the middle of Seattle, and doesn't have a car. He would hardly ever get to see his baby. :< Everyone says children need their mother, but I am on the other side of the fence with that. Children need their fathers. I know from personal experience.
I would be away from my closest friends, all of whom are ready to offer support and love (and will probably fight over who gets to kidnap the baby for a day. )
Also important- I would be giving up the opportunity to grow with this fledgling business that is just about to take off... the two guys I'm working "for" are my best friend and a man that I am now pretty convinced is an utter genius- they say there are other fish in the sea but this is my dream scenario- I'm loathe to give it up.
Am I just being selfish? Do I come back to work, or do I live with my mom for a few years? I don't know what I should do.