bummer! Just do what you need to do. You don't have too much longer now.
When my son was born, the hospital here didn't even HAVE epidurals! I was begging at one point. I had back labor and despite my usual high tolerance for pain, nothing even could come close to explaining this type of pain. I threw up a lot during early and active labor. But once I felt the urge to push, it was over pretty fast. Like, first push, water broke. The more pushes, I had a son on my chest....and a rip and hemorrhoids the size of Texas. The midwives weren't really ready to deal with me, but I said someone had better catch because I was pushing and I was going to stop this pain!!!
Not sure how things will go with this next guy. I am really hoping that I don't have back labor again. But I do know the hospital now offers epidurals. I guess I will have to just wait and see.
Even without any drugs...I was still in a very strange state after my son was born. I don't really know how to explain it, but for many hours after his birth I kind of felt like I was in la la land, but still very aware. But nothing seemed to upset me and I was very very calm. Anyone else like this?