Sorry everyone, I was really taking advantage of the whole nap when the baby naps thing!
Well....I did it!! Last night she slept seperately in her pack n play! It's right next to my bed but I can't see in it unless I get up. I didn't obsess either. I checked on her when she was making noise and she still woke up every 2-3 hours but it was amazing. I didn't sleep much but I am chalking that up to being incredibly hot. I didn't wanna turn the fan on because everything says to keep the baby out of the draft. I am actually kind of looking forward to tonight. It feels like I can finally get into a normal routine. All of your comments helped so much. Just knowing that other people felt similar to the way I was feeling helped me realize that I'm not crazy. I was a tad irrational though. I think in all reality I was putting her in more danger having her sleep in the Boppy pillow and on the couch with me. I just had to look at all the facts. Neither my boyfriend or I smoke, I breastfeed, she sleeps on her side/back with a positioner........anyway, I am doing everything in my power to prevent SIDS and the rest is up to God. My daughter is very happy and healthy and I am extremely lucky for that. If I keep living in fear, it will ruin my relationship with my boyfriend and eventually will ruin Aubrey's happiness. I don't want to be the obsessive over-protective mother. I want to enjoy my daughter and my family. Wow! I feel so much different. Part of me actually feels like cleaning the house (a very small part, of course).
You all have been so amazing and I am so lucky I found this forum. I'm definitely not leaving. I'll still have millions of questions and no one knows how it is like the people who have done it before! Thank you all so much!!!
