And advance apologies for future grouchieness?
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about my general treatment of myself, and realised that something is really wrong there, combined with my husband telling me that he is really worried about me (my weight, or lack of, in particular, I am now down to a children's 10-12, which by adult US standards would be around 000) and I have come to the conclusion that I need to fix these things.
I'm trying to cut down on coffee and cigarettes (yes, I started smoking again, quite heavily) because I am substituting them for food, really the only time I eat is at dinner with the family and I only eat a child-sized portion because I always feel so nauseous, the rest of the day I only consume black coffee, anyways, I have been so irritable since cutting down, migraines, shakes, anxiety, cold sweats, the works and it has really effected my personality and has made me quite short-tempered. I can't recall if I have lashed out at anyone on here but if it has come across that way I apologise.
Eventually my goal is to quit smoking again, but the way I figure the most important thing at the moment is trying to get my weight back up to something healthy, then I will work on that, then the coffee, then cut down on alcohol consumption, but that is far from my biggest problem at the moment. I kind of want all vices gone, I haven't had that since I was a teenager, I don't know if it is possible, but I am going to try.
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about my general treatment of myself, and realised that something is really wrong there, combined with my husband telling me that he is really worried about me (my weight, or lack of, in particular, I am now down to a children's 10-12, which by adult US standards would be around 000) and I have come to the conclusion that I need to fix these things.
I'm trying to cut down on coffee and cigarettes (yes, I started smoking again, quite heavily) because I am substituting them for food, really the only time I eat is at dinner with the family and I only eat a child-sized portion because I always feel so nauseous, the rest of the day I only consume black coffee, anyways, I have been so irritable since cutting down, migraines, shakes, anxiety, cold sweats, the works and it has really effected my personality and has made me quite short-tempered. I can't recall if I have lashed out at anyone on here but if it has come across that way I apologise.
Eventually my goal is to quit smoking again, but the way I figure the most important thing at the moment is trying to get my weight back up to something healthy, then I will work on that, then the coffee, then cut down on alcohol consumption, but that is far from my biggest problem at the moment. I kind of want all vices gone, I haven't had that since I was a teenager, I don't know if it is possible, but I am going to try.