lfedwards said:
I have often questioned my (and my husband's) parenting.
I think that this is very healthy; the very fact that you ask yourself these kind of questions is already proof you ARE a great parent, IMO.
lfedwards said:
I used to be the very gentle one... he the disciplinarian.
It's quite typical to see this pattern in families. It can cause tensions between the two parents, too.
lfedwards said:
You have asked many questions....
Yes, sorry
Sometimes, I feel it's more effective than advices. It triggers a process, it causes us to revise our underlying mental models - the assumptions we have about how the world works, and that we otherwise rarely challenge.
lfedwards said:
to sum it up, I do show everyone respect, but i do question some things that my daughter does see, being an only child... maybe some conversations that she may hear between adults... or hear me on the phone... that is definitely something for me to think about!!!
You know, I think that the key point here is not so much about how she should not hear these things.. because how realistic is that? I believe that authenticity is one of the most powerful thing in a relationship and in family dynamics. But how can one be truly authentic when we hide things from each other? In the reality, we are humans. And humans make mistakes and sometimes, we are not as respectful with <I>
everyone</I> as we would like to show children. So I think the key is to be conscious of it and, when it happens, you can catch yourself, take a deep breath, and say "I am sorry". And now you can <I>
model</I> what to do instead in front of your child, and then your child understand how she can also say "I am sorry" and accept it when she makes a mistake.
After all, if mommy can make a mistake, then so can I.
And mommy can be disrespectful, but she says what she thinks for real. And so can I. Yet when mommy is disrespectful, even if she said what she thought, she can go back and say I am sorry. And so can I.
lfedwards said:
One reason that I got on here and asked for help is because I do realize that our relationship (mine and my daughter's) needs help... and it scares me because she is only 9 yrs old. I know that I am impatient and I hate that!
Same as above. Being impatient is okay.
What matters is how you are able to go back after, take your daughter aside, and apologize (yes, you are allowed to say "I am sorry" to her too).
And when she is the one who is impatient, remember how it feels when you are, and this acceptance will help both of you be more authentic so you can respect each other's needs.
lfedwards said:
We are close, and we do spend a lot of time together. Reading your posts and questions, I am starting to wonder if she thinks that I DON'T respect her.
I would venture to say she may think this <I>
sometimes.
Most likely, however, it's unconscious. </I>It may be, at times, more how she <I>
feels.
</I>lfedwards, please remember nothing is set in stone. Your relationship with your daughter is evolving every day, and will do so for all your and her life. It's okay to make mistakes. It's how you handle these mistakes that makes all the difference in the world. Each new mistake is really, in reality, a great opportunity to model the wanted behavior and to reconnect even deeper with your daughter. No need to feel bad about the past. Your relationship with her is ahead of you, not in the past.
lfedwards said:
Now... I need advice as to how to talk to her. Where to start to let her know that I do respect her. How to work on this. How do I define respect...?
She does not need to hear it. She needs to LIVE it and FEEL it.
I would start by reading this
credo for respectful relationship, as it was written by Dr. Thomas Gordon.:
<I>You and I are in a relationship which I value and want to keep. We are also two separate persons with our own individual values and needs. So that we will better know and understand what each of us values and needs, let us always be open and honest in our communication.
When you are experiencing a problem in your life, I will try to listen with genuine acceptance and understanding in order to help you find your own solutions rather than imposing mine. And I want you to be a listener for me when I need to find solutions to my problems.
At those times when your behavior interferes with what I must do to get my own needs met, I will tell you openly and honestly how your behavior affects me, trusting that you respect my needs and feelings enough to try to change the behavior that is unacceptable to me. Also, whenever some behavior of mine is unacceptable to you, I hope you will tell me openly and honestly so I can try to change my behavior.
And when we experience conflicts in our relationship, let us agree to resolve each conflict without either of us resorting to the use of power to win at the expense of the other’s losing. I respect your needs, but I also must respect my own. So let us always strive to search for a solution that will be acceptable to both of us. Your needs will be met, and so will mine–neither will lose, both will win.
In this way, you can continue to develop as a person through satisfying your needs, and so can I. Thus, ours can be a healthy relationship in which both of us can strive to become what we are capable of being. And we can continue to relate to each other with mutual respect, love and peace.</I>
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I believe this is a very powerful credo to live by in a family.
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lfedwards said:
you know... my mother was always really big on APPEARANCE .. what others thought... I never wanted to be like that ... but looking at this, it looks like maybe I am sliding in that direction. When I try to define what I think RESPECT is... it scares me to think that I want others to think that she is respectful.. I don't want others that think that she is disrespectful.
I think you are touching on some deep and important aspects here.
Are your choices for your daughter driven by your own relationship with your mother? (this is very common.. and it takes a conscious effort to dissociate from it and take decisions for yourself, not because of what underlying assumptions and mental model were ingrained in you from your own childhood). The fact that you are already making that link.. it's all the kudos to you. It's a powerful first step. Let me know how I can help further, I'll be happy to assist.