I have absolutely no faith in child services or the justice system right now.
The social worker is still leaving me out in the cold, but talking to my mother and the children's father. I have no idea why this woman is shutting me out and telling me to go away basically.
She wasn't including me in anything at all until I just turned up at her office, and even then she fobbed me off after telling me she fully supports the stepmother. She seems to think I coached the children to say they were abused because I don't like their stepmother.
How did she figure that without even talking to me? I won't deny it, I despise that woman, but I would not use my children to get at her. No way I would hurt them like that.
I even tried for months to be friendly and civil with her, but I just couldn't do it any more. I don't like her as a person at all, she is just manipulative and controlling.
She would always be nice to someone to their face and then tell me nasty things about them. I can't stand that. I felt that if she was backstabbing so many people to me I could pretty much guarantee she was saying things to them about me.
I put up with her for a long period of time and I just felt sick pretending to like her because people kept telling me I HAD to do it for the sake of the kids.
Eventually her backstabbing caught up to her and she lost all her friends, I was all she had left. I was told by a friend of hers, someone she had been friends with for 13 years to give it time, she would screw me over like she has done all her other friends.
She did, she started telling everyone they were her children, plastering their birth certs online without my permission, giving them twitter accounts to question the kids about me for ammo against me.
Telling me that if she wasn't involved with my wedding (which was on a day they were in his care) then they could not come. Then she told me I wasn't allowed to see them or have them stay with me for the wedding. I hated her, she hijacked my wedding.
This included finding out what wedding dress I was going to wear and then announcing to everyone on her site that she was going to wear that dress to her wedding. I had to pick another one and lie about it.
When she started posting lies about me after the majority of her friends left her site I just lost it. Posting and saying I didn't want to speak to my kids when they were with them. The judge said that since their stepmother was constantly badgering the children and interfering with the phone calls that I shouldn't call.
She criticised the way I do laundry and invited people to post about it. I saw posts from her saying I dressed the children stupid, just anything to make it look like I was a bad mother who cared nothing for her kids.
I am just so angry that this social worker just takes her word for it without even talking to me. I put up with a lot of crap from this woman for the kids sake so why the hell would I suddenly choose to do something that would hurt them?
I don't know what sob story she told the social worker, but she believes it fully.
If she has the support of the social worker, there is nothing I can do says the lawyer.
I waited a while after being told things by the children because I was afraid it would be seen this way, but when they started telling the school they were being abused I felt like I should have done something sooner, because going to the school was them seeking anyone to help them get out of that situation.
Now what do I tell my children? I can't protect you sorry. I can't say anything truthful to them, that will just end up 'proving' what the social worker thinks is going on.
How is it fair that she can make such a judgement without even talking to me at all? Sorry for the long rant, but I'm just so frustrated with everything. It's affecting my health all this stress.